GONE

By Lillibit Ray

How to cope with a broken past

when the present truth it led to

hurts so goddamn much?

Take a day, another day, then one day more

to try to process a reality in which

gone is innocence.

Impossible expectations

from very beginning.

drowning in your needs,

as well as my self-induced euphoria, 

turning to vices to get right

and gone was clear mind,

needed to mend

our unraveling weave.

What options remain?

There will always be

doubts behind my motives,

fears behind our hopes and intentions,

and gone is rational reasoning,

trust between you and me

along with it.

Dark illusions from addiction take me

yet tranquility is all I want

while gone is the girl I used to be,

and still I say these words,

“I want to be your peace”,

time and again, meaning it,

but helpless to manifest it

while stuck in an altered reality,

and gone is my truth,

it’s now all a bluff,

and as I implode,

gone is you.

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