Soap suds and lukewarm water, bubbling beneath
as I clean. Mundane tasks to block out the pain of you and
A dullness behind my eyes enters and thuds,
unwanted. It pounds as I scrub and scrape the memory of you and it,
from my life before you’ve even
If you’re going then go, leave me with dishes unclean
over in my head as I play out where it all went wrong. What I
Our tenant no longer resides inside my empty womb and I know
I am blamed.
But my heart too has stopped beating and we cannot be happy
You are prolonging the agony by waiting around,
‘Are you okay?’
Of course not, I’m fading, I’ve drowned.
our summer over in my mind on repeat, rewinding
a broken record.
Beneath cotton and sweat dripping in happiness
into your body as one like we thought we had become.
leaving the earth believing we two were the only people on it
when each forbidden part of skin was loved so thoroughly.
Careless and carefree.
I know every part of your body as it stands, broadly,
in the arch of my doorway. Gawking, waiting for my reaction
‘Go, if you’re going’
I say though I don’t really mean it. Instead swallowing syllables
I want to say
choking me as they meet the lump in my throat on the way down
He leaves me then, isolated with my thoughts, my silence
And I remain entirely alone.